Invisibles of Trinity – Part III
Before arriving at Trinity College Dublin as a Computer Science student and even before my diagnosis of bringing on the Autistic Spectrum I was already aware of my difficulties in social encounters, especially in group work. In conversation my “radar” is limited in picking up all the subtle messaging that we all give out and I can be too literal in my understanding, leading to confusion. Indeed it is this “literalness” I suspect is why I enjoy coding so much.
Another issue is my own personal shyness and apprehension especially with new people so it could be months before I feel even confident to say someone’s name or with group work to make even a basic suggestion. But with group work, there are additional issues with my need for stability and certainty. Without it, I enter a familiar process from feeling highly stressed to weariness and finally to resignation and withdrawal from participating. How group work can cause this is by the group being leaderless, self-doubting, or the task at hand being very unclear. Steps that I have taken to address this include contacting the Course Coordinator with my Disability Officer to explain the issues I face and working with the Disability Service in developing the skills I will need after I leave college in the workplace.
Only in facing our difficulties can we hope to fix them.